Ambivalence.

Is it worth it....to live a life of sacrifice...
to not indulge,  to abstain, to refrain...
to shut yourself in your room,
when the world outside parties.

to reach nowhere, to yet keep walking,
to push, to pull, to fall, to rise...
only to fall , get up, and walk..
yet again.

is it worth it, to put on the blinkers...
when things so many, beckon you in your peripheral vision...
an Alladin...hunting for his magic lamp...
is it worth it, to toil...when the whole world sleeps cosily ensconced in it's cocoon...
in the quiet, wee hours of a winter morning.
when all seems lost, when the last flicker of light seems to be dying...
is it worth it to keep that hope lit...

is it worth it, to give, and not take...
to savor wantonly, to only window shop...
to stand watching the setting sun by the choppy waters of versova...
and tell that fireball slowly sinking into the Arabian waters...
"I do not know whether it's all worth it or not...
but untill I see you again tomorrow...
i'll keep thinking it is."